freshmeat

a simple story about a complicated girl. compared to others in audrey's filmography, i know that this particular film is particularly polarizing. the racism and erasure of queerness derserves it's space in the conversation, and yet, holly golightly is like holding up a mirror to my soul. the cab scene monologue is so powerful. holly may have set cat free in the cold alley, but being loved by her trumps freedom any day. freedom isn't running because all she ended up doing was running straight into herself. "i'm not holly, i'm not lula mae either, i don't know who i am!" oh holly, nobody understands you like i do

a very addictive rush. having a Boyfriend is the closest i can get to having someone be mine and mine alone. i was never very good at sharing. i'm an only child! but people don't belong to people no matter what the movies say. being held in a boy's arms is one of the highest of highs, and all highs come down eventually

golds are the standard. i don't mind spirits or camels. reds are overrated

crushes make me crazy. every time i think i'm past this it happens again and it's the worst fun

best done with a homeboy that you are down to sleep with and who you are sure is down to sleep with you too. this is not degrading because said homeboy has been the nicest to you out of everyone you've met in the past year and was the first person you told about your mom when she died. he has the blondest hair you've ever seen in your life

i remember wishing endlessly that you would die and now you have. conflicting feelings

for better or for worse, it always comes back to them

guardian angels. wish granters. big fan

medium rare. sexy. very boyfriend-y, which is a bit inconvenient because there is no way to gracefully eat a good cut of steak

tender and sweet but unfortunately i am half deaf in one ear

fifteen, bare legs hanging out of the bedroom window as i watch the children younger than me play on the swing-set across the street and the boys older than me drive past. nothing compares to the sunsets you see here and everyday is miserable