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3:21pm 400mg for cramps

3:21pm 500mg for cramps

2:35pm Halfway throuh my lunch break. Contemplating this because I just saw "The Bad Seed" (play) recently and Monica's discussion of the changeling fantasy resonated with me. But I never had the desire for (or belief in) secret, better parents. I always felt like the bad one. I never felt human, I looked in the mirror and saw an alien, but I didn't think I belonged somewhere else or that I had a home to go back to. I was just a mistake, an utter failure at the human factory. I needed to seal myself up alone. It's been over 2 decades and I don't think I ever conquered this. Oh well!

2:22pm Wanting to go back in time. Desire is at its worst when you know it's unreachable, and at its best when you think it's unreachable. But i know it, now.

2:15pm Usually a neutral-positive activity but there's a soap situation I'd rather not discuss right now

2:14pm Not good but i don't have time to continue

2pm Just passing the time + too much blood